I Meant What I Said. When I Said  ?????

The day that you left me, my heart was broken.  But I meant all those fantasy words of mine that were spoken.  I prayed that  those same words would be spoken in return.  Little did I realize the reality, that I was about to learn.  I gave you all I had dear, I couldnt give anymore.  I even gave you back your wings, and watched you walk out the door.  Of my home and life forever.  Oh! My friends say, " Good for you, You've turned the page, " it's all for the better.  Is that why I find myself, crying endlessly with each word I put into your letter.  It's still sitting here waiting on my desk.  My heart wants to mail it, but my Mind says, just put it to rest.  And so I travel to all of our favorite places, you still are sitting beside me dear, within my hearts fantasy oasis.  I wish you all the best, I'm sad that I wasn't it.  Dont ever doubt that you are'nt loved, or badly missed.  Take care of yourself won't you, guard your heart and dont practice to deceive.  For the surest way to lose a true love is simply just choose to leave.  There were no explanations, no chance to talk at all.  I thought that you would catch me, if ever I were to fall.  I fooled myself in believing the love I had for you, would penetrate and concquer all, and that love would see us through; but it didnt.  Goodbye My Love, I love you, no matter how near or far.  For, you are a precious jewel to me, that's just what you truly are.

Ronda Smith